January 31, 2013
When I was younger I had all the time. I didn't have the money. Now I'm in a limbo between the two - I have more money than I did before, but not as much time. As life moves on, I know I'm going to go through a decade or two where I have neither time or money, and I'm trying to take advantage of what I can while I can.
I wish I was bolder. I wish, instead of 15 little trips, I'd be brave enough to say "this. This is the year I'm going to Europe." And then I'd book my flight, book my hotel, and go. By myself, with someone, neither would stop me.
I've lost a lot of confidence in the last year or so. I put on weight and lost some of my fire. I only felt pretty in my garb. I only felt confident standing behind my actors when I directed a play.
I'm starting to do something about it. I'm running and practicing portion control, and in three weeks I've lost 4 pounds. It's the tip of the iceberg, but it's a start. In three weeks, I already have more energy. More energy and less weight will eventually translate to confidence and fire. I know it will.
2013, so far, is shaping up.