Marizabeth needed a second shooter and asked me. I was thrilled! It was an experience I always wanted to have, and this one kind of fell into my lap without any further effort other than mentioning it to her offhand about a year ago.
Ok, I have a confession to make. Are you ready for this? It's a little wordy.
I was never the girl that dreamed about her wedding. In fact, well into my teen years I would proudly proclaim I never wanted to get married, because I didn't see the point. I also didn't go to many weddings as a kid, either. I'm the oldest cousin on both sides of the family, all of my parents friends were long married by the time I came around, and there's a pretty big age gap in our extended family. Weddings just weren't a "thing" for me. Heck, formal dances were barely a thing for me. I played soccer and built sets and hung out with guys. Forget that girly wedding stuff!
Fast forward to college. I was studying stage management (which is basically a more specific form of event management) and not in any sort of relationship. I was trying to figure out if this theatre thing was cut out for me and always wanting a backup plan, trying to figure out what else I could do with it. And I kid you not, I sat up one morning because apparently it hit me in my sleep - I wanted to be a wedding planner.
And while this sound ridiculous, it's totally feasible. I'm good at event planning. I have an eye for design and I think outside the box. I even mentioned it to the head of my department and he said it was a good idea. About a week later I went "Oh right. Bridezillas."
I just think it's something I'd be good at. I was kind of able to ignore it for a long time, but every time I turn around another friend is getting engaged and planning a wedding. I am Marizabeth's Maid of Honor (Or according to my brother, "best woman"). I shot this wedding and am shooting another one in August. I was doing research looking at picture ideas for weddings, and then looking at design and DIY ideas for Marizabeth. And because of these things and the event planner in me I can't. Stop. Talking. About it. Which I'm sure is making The Boy thrilled, because he's the one that gets my random ramblings all the time. And I knew it was bad when I mentioned those paper lanterns that people send off and the fact that I had never done one and wanted to someday, and he smiled and said "I know what you're talking about."
But I wasn't! I had seen it on Deadliest Catch earlier that week and then saw a video where they released like 3,000 of them of the summer solstice that day on You Tube! Honest! No, really.
I feel like I need to clear the air and say I am not ready to get married and even though I talk about stuff a lot, I'm pretty sure The Boy knows it. We are not anywhere near being able to financially support ourselves at this point, and I do not have the personality to get married and figure out the rest later - my ducks need to be a little more in a row before then. I am simply at "that age" where all my friends are getting hitched so it comes up often in conversations and then in turn spills out everywhere else. I just love planning things, and something like a wedding is the Ultimate Planning Experience.
If given the opportunity, would I be a wedding planner? Maybe. Probably. All I know is I was photographing the wedding this past weekend and while I was only the second shooter and therefore had significantly less stress put on me, it's the stress I thrive on. And as I was wandering around the reception hall capturing little moments, I thought "I can totally do this."
And now I'll stop rambling and share some damn pictures.